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"But we do not become rich by having something dwell in our hands and wither there...but the things are meant to wander on beyond our hands, sturdy and strong, and we are meant to retain nothing of them but the courageous morning song that floats and shimmers behind their fading steps...

that sensuality is not a secret flame that always breaks out in the same place - let that be our pride and strength. we want it to become a cheerful torch that we hold laughingly behind all the transparencies of our being..." - p. 87

...if the poet does not come to the land that raised him, then that land will come through all things to the poet..." - p. 121

"Each thing is only a space, a possibility, and it is up to me to fill it perfectly or poorly. For since human beings and circumstances are so capricious and forever in turmoil, by what is one to measure oneself if not by the willing things?"

"This is the first presentiment of something eternal: to haev the time for love" - p. 123

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yesterday, i begun a new beginning. i threw away my tendencies for mindless day-slumber and threw myself straight into what i fear i might not accomplish. It might have been the rigour of the past weeks, fusing into the sudden freedom, the train wreck of emotions coming to a halt and then a gentle huffing across terrains, the view of the august goal in perspective, the need to be an adult at twenty six, overdosing in green tea, or the snowy diffused lights coming in from the fifth floor of that building, the love for my family, for mingyao and the love for life and living or the prodding of God.

but i have begun it and i will do it well. In every aspect i will strive to be as inquisitive as a child and i will see it with new eyes. embrace embrace. new shoes should help pretty well.