just a short 2.6km but i don't understand why i was so tired. i was literally dragging my feet for every step. somewhat at a horrible plateau. i hate such phrases. got to zip it again. M.Y.Choy sorry for not zipping. i appreciate it totally. my defensive attitude just turns even myself off. mid-week rejuvination; a holistic rehauling of my inner being a compulsory endeavour before the week ends to save myself from tipping off the edge literally. whalish. yuck.

The Practice has just ended. it's amazing how a television show can take a part of you with it as much as parts of it become you. watching it at a time like this makes me think about the life ahead. i really want my career to be something i am passionate about, because i want it to be an innate part of me and vice versa. i don't think i can ever live doing something that does not add and extract to me. but right now, it's so hard because as much as i have to be focused, i still have dunno feeling in me. detached and attached half heartedly yet not maliciously. what would i have done is never a good question to ask. but what can i do is a difficult one. i can conjure nothing up now. i don't know if i am living the days just going by or what. i want back some of that enthusiastic curious adventurer i think i once was when the path was clear but fresh. i don't know where i belong.