_ i cut my wrist when i accidently smashed a glass on the counter sink. i think i bled several teaspoons. no i didn't get a high, but there was a hypnotic fascination with watching the blood flow ceaselessly under the running water. it's the exact spot where my right hand rests upon when i'm cadding.

_ three rounds round the track before kickboxing. i'm going to make sure i run tomorrow. cannot let the momentum stop or the spiralling downwards will lead me into another catastrophic pit of self-inflicted-sorry-moaning-for-self. not a very nice state of mind to be in.

_ M.Y. Choy just told me i'd be spending my birthday in australia. so neat! photographer's bug biting me nonstop. it eats into me so furiously just thinking about looking at a foreign land through the lens makes my heart skip a beat.

_ the most gorgeous mother in the world, her birthday is on wednesday, so the loh family are going for dinner together again. [hoorah!]