so MY CHOY has gone to australia, for a week. two weekend days spent with him after not having met him for ages is simply not enough. i love it best when we sit down and people-watch and cuddle and talk or be silent for some moments. i really think we are totally in sync. so this week will be spent meeting up with the girlfriends not having exams, trying to finally practice all the recipes i've been reading, planning stuff. making christmas cards. cleaning up my room; i'm trying to make it cosy like it was in hostel so i rearranged my furninture. i have mostly dark wood furniture in my room so it's a rather earthy theme; brought down my rosetti print from the store and put up more pictures. back to writing in my purple diary. still the same thick book from when i was nineteen, bought from the paperchase building in london. i shall aim to fill the book up soon and i can start on a new journal. how i love to fill them lineless white pages with words. and probably borrow plath's journal to read again, i can never get enough of her phrases, her depth of experience that she articulates so well and non-methodically, it's so real it hurts.

focus comes when one is sure of the path? somehow at this moment the heart and mind are trying to reconnect on the same plane. it's either a case of never reconnecting on this issue, or just a little adjustment that needs to be made, to rid me of those distractions. holiday detox. mental and physical. will go running tomorrow morning. today's swim was most unsatisfactory. gonna make this holiday a good one, it's too short! spending time with my siblings back home is such a lovely thing. laughing at the bitching on tv's reality show, talking nonsense and stuff. it really is like a little girly group thing, of course with my little brother always involved with his straightfaced reactions and spontaneous hugs and wiser-than-me-sometimes advice.

Last sunday's episode of gilmore girls was so aww-inducing.the scene with luke listening to those help tapes and the speaker was asking those questions and you see the light in luke's eyes and the next day just before the show ended when he went to lorelei's home in the morning? i am SO excited!