long weekend



2 BBQs in a weekend. On Friday the office had a BBQ at M's home and on Sunday evening, another BBQ rounded up the cell retreat. this time for cell retreat alex and tl planned an outreach program. we took some old folks to eat at the food court at the flyer and then to the peranakan museum, which is a really nice museum by the way. so a weekend of revelry, to be followed by two weeks of super intense churning of words. must. be. focused. so that i can attend my events, both personal (a weekend with siblings, baby shower for sam, dinner with greg and sabine from hk) and work.

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sometimes i think about my current work, about how doing architecture is so different about writing about it; there is the tendency to fall into the trap of thinking one is inferior to the other, hence i always have to remind myself that both are different and hence, what is it within this particular context that i want to achieve? what kind of focus do i want? what is the point of telling design stories? is there such a thing as a design story? in a way, i don't want to, at this point, very strongly dip my toes into the realm of critique, hence i stay on the safer side of a 'story'. so now i am still watching, learning, thinking, reflecting - within the right context. and i must do so quietly because really, as yh has always reminded me, focus on the substance; that is what he had been training me to do. (and not to lose yourself; and to be 'selfish' and bold to go your own way).

and so retreat was great cos the focus was on compassion. i think there are a lot of qualities i have to develop/ re-develop. the best way to do that is being quiet, listening and asking. sometimes i think about whether i am performing my roles to the best of my abilities - a good wife, sister, daughter, employee - and the most important thing is always not how much i do physically but where is God in all this. reflection - discipline - action.