friday i'm in love



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i always like it when it rains. when it's heavy and doesn't stop through the day. somehow it makes the mood a little more mellow and i seem to be more composed when the mood is mellow - like when it's night.

i'm a little stagnated on the stamina end. fear can be overcomed by action, and self-pity can be overcomed by gratitude. i marvel at people who can really work at their priorities with a feverish persistence and i know that somehow i can do a little better than where i'm at. it's time i made some rules for myself and followed them diligently instead of being whisked away so often and unnecessarily by all the distractions. but the distractions - they are so lovely! i'm so good with the - being inspired - but i have to work on the following up.

and deep in my heart, or rather staring me very squarely in the face, are the things i know are important in life, in my life and i know what the obstacles are but i'm just, like how i am, breezing through it all without mental commitment. it's really scary when i look in the mirror and i see the physical deterioration manifested in the awful wrinkles and no moisturiser does not save. the only cure is prevention. lethargy be gone!

i miss writing essays and doing research in musky libraries.

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some music can light up the room.

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something nice :: filippa k winter collection. i like the woman's jacket.
maybe i like her hair.



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goodnight.