"This daily attentiveness, alertness, and egarness of the senses turned outward, this thousandfold seeing and seeing always away from onself...This purity of life, this always being joyful becuase something always is happening, not that it has any bearing on one's own personality, but simply that there is motion and change. How large the eyes become here. They want at all times to possesss the whole sky...one stores up beauty the way one does knowledge and bits of wisdom. One scarcely uses it...the time hasn't come yet. One learns. One learns always and from every moment..." - p. 163

no time for war and peace. i will just finish the diaries by this week. then i need a new story for train rides - reading is a balm to soothe the annoying claustrophobia, for in my mind i can be in a field.

what i keep thinking about is the light from the window with the retro window grills. light in its various personalities can really affect my inspired nature. subconsciously, that was one factor.