i have been loving everyday since monday. today on the way home, i finished this book. Rilke writes exactly how i have been feeling - an exuberance, sometimes a tremour of excitment, sometimes a little fear. I have been discovering new things in old spaces everyday.

"Now she felt that grown-up's prerogative of experiencing everything the trees and creeks underwent, of witnessing nto just the sunniness, the things that are easily bearable and fill one with happiness, but also what was sad and solemn in nature, as if she were now an adult being initiated into a whole range of relations and shown everything that might frighten and shatter a child..."

"This is what enables us to live more peacefully and in a deeper agreement with nature, i.e., more intuitively. If behind our sadness a shimmering springtime flickers and moves about in high clouds,then our sadness will be more healtfelt, and our feeling dons purple robes when it forms wreaths out of falling leaves and expends all the colours of October without any thought of what their dying means.-..."

"I want to have an autumn. I want to cover myself over with winter and not betray my presence with any colour. I want to remain snowed in for the sake of a coming sprintime so that what is germinating inside me might not rise prematurely from the furrows..." - p. 200-201

Diaries of a Young Poet, Rainer Maria Rilke