positivity and me!



life is but a few decades so there is really no time for regrets and negativity and dumping your sorry morose-ness or morose-ing on other people and on yourself and so sometimes i can be quite affected or cancerous i must not let that bite me like an itch or a sore but do the robin williams carpe diem thing and stand on the desk and look down from other perspective. to say christmas is coming is like heralding the (if only) coming of free paul and joe french cream-coloured silk blouse that is i feel really joyful thinking about it and seeing the gold and red tinsels and glass balls hanging above cars and from trees along orchard road and now i am thinking i had better get myself spiritually prepared for christmas and not wait till then to try and reconcile with God and rejoice like an innocent babe. and then there is the sending of christmas cards by snail mail the most joyful thing to do and i am already listening to nat king cole and his crooning of christmas joys and i hope the weather will be cool.

so i am finally well and the haze has been erased for a while and i hope forever i can and must go running now and often and everyday - hopefully - and to be as diligent as i can be on my school work and give myself a christmas present which is a pat on the back for some very necessary things accomplished by christmas okay i think i am going to make a pac with God now.

and mingyao he is my best friend and my admirer and admiree and so all is good and last night we pulled over at casaurina road for prata egg and kosong and teh ping less sugar and basked with other people on supper high and oh i so love you and i must aim to be a very good girl and trash destroy and cull those negative thoughts and also resist the other kind of morose-ness which is that topshop warehouse and country road are having big sales and derek lam and bogetta v look so beautiful on the runways and i am but a poor student. but we really shouldn't care should we. haha and bah.