deserved freedom could be near. how much do you really want it? maybe God shook His head and said not again and decided i had to learn not to rely on myself but on Him instead. make the after, good.

"Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men; knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Lord Christ whom you serve." - Colossians 3 verse 23-24

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake." - Psalms 23 verses 1 - 3