loving someone and being loved articulates things in life that could have pass you by, like feeling new voids, new presences; you adopt different ways of eating, different ways you drink your water, different ways you read, different ways you listen to music; you feel more generous and giving, as well as more selfish and paranoid; you are a servant and a queen; you feel your individual character more defined and you also feel you are no longer just yourself; and you love it all because it's like travelling to a new place, as well as coming home to a familiar space, it's expansive and intimate, loud and sacred. you don't want to sleep because you want to think about him more. i miss you like stupid.

"It's the scariest day of the year. Yet only one thing scares me, that we might never have met."

- autumn in new york