somehow today's evening run to the stadium didn't seem as exciting. i blame it on having ran in the morning too, and on being quite absolutely tired out this week. gotta be a good girl and be in bed early. smugness in people, that's a turn off. and when we are pissed for silly reasons, we can't bang doors. we can't do many things but, i suppose that is alright. i'm learning how to be a less affected person. my bad temper is a horror cos it springs out like a wild cat from a bush and it's like a tempest. sometimes i just want to indulge in anger, maybe for silly reasons. but it's better not to.