listening to quiet girl music hiding from the sun behind curtains while typing out my nochlin summary. and feeling rather summer-ish, rather mellow at the same time. after the past weeks, after the tensioned moment before crit and the flood of relief that came after, there's this sudden peaceful calm state of 'being'. a rather grateful happiness and satisfaction with life at just sitting here with my strawberry tea churning out some words after the stress-filled week. and later, a proper first post-crit date with M.Y. Choy.

He's now at the band competition with the band he coaches so i get more time to write my summary before we meet. maybe it's the after-kickboxing feel-good vibes that still reside in me from last night. i loved that we did so much cardio. am really going to make use of these few free weeks to sweat it out. all the running, swimming, blading, cycling (m.y. choy, our katong bike-binge remember ya) and maybe if the sailing gang goes sailing i might just attempt a go at it again. shall make it a point to do something active everyday. i know i have to do this cos it does wonders for me. it's my drug, the other of which is the beloved HE. wonderful guy who in the midst of his busy working schedule zipped all over town to get my basswood for me, and be my elf on sunday night.

it's like how while doing all that last week i keep thinking about my valuation in this craft; i always feel my personality judged by the product though i know it shouldn't be so. i'm not competent yet and have to work towards getting to that level. thus the after-crit and this semester with all its good studio factors rolled in, has done much for me. hooray for good tutors and bleh for the mean ones.

it's quite amusing how so many people remark that i remind them of krisen kreuk in looks and mannerisms. before smallville i guess i was 'uncatogarisable' in reference to somebody famous. haha but it is quite a compliment for she is quite a babe.