dinner with uncle richard and auntie elina at my choice chinese cuisine near great world city. the food was fantastic.

strange feeling. families are complicated and very delicate. the threads linking all the members - very intricate, changeable; unpredictable synergy or bouts of irriating silences. what a stark moment that was. bittersweet, mostly just very delicate. could be bitter if one wanted, could be indifferent, in twos, or threes or altogether now we rock differently and i'm beginning to see that i shouldn't let it bother me. much.

i love many things in life, and i am very tired. those intangible things might be better off unpolished then gleaming white all the time, 'tis artifice then. very delicate indeed.