such a cliched thing to say but i do feel a bit funny with all the girls my batch graduating this year, the last remnants who were in honours last semester. the same feeling i get when my aki batch graduated last year with their b(arch) degrees. no, no negative feelings, since i've never thought of the graduation ceremony as a big thing. come to think of it, i guess it is something meant to be celebrated. the thing i'll be celebrating is that i finally don't have to burden my dad with tuition fees anymore, in two years that is.

anyway going out is always dangerous, money spending is more liberal when you see things. consumerism traps surround you everywhere. of course we don't need those things. ok, today i fell prey to hmv and borders. bought the godfather trilogy which was on sale, and also 'sabrina' the audrey hepburn black and white version. she's classic as usual. some personalities just take your breath away. and in the jazz section of hmv under recommendations there was this french 70s brigette bardot cd which was NOT on sale but after sampling the music i was tempted and i parted wtih my twenty two dollars and ninety five cents. it's really cool though. i saw these francoise hardy and edith piaf cds but i couldn't sample them so i wasn't that tempted, a good thing i guess. sabrina she went to france and lived the french life, lana lang wants to go to paris to do art. it's scary how tv can make you feel so extremely pained at how things see so attainable and yet unattainable at the same time. it makes you feel how short life is, and it makes you feel how much you can grasp before you die. and of course it makes you think of death too, which also, makes you think about life. thinking is a waste of time at some points in my life, procrastination can make you die an unsatisfied person, and who, comes home each day and feels totally unregretful, whole, and satisfied for even one day in her life? moping? no. this is what endorphins from running does to you sometimes. it can give you a high that takes over your mind.

and these few minutes, mellow moments, the stillness before the breaking, the subtle surges of introspection comes stealing.

all things are possible.all things are possible.all things are possible.