gave up on 'middlemarch', just not in the mood for it now. so i picked up '1984'. it's better.nowadays though i'm a magazine addict. shrek 2 today, hilarious. tired.

i am too defensive. psychologically i can excuse myself by analysing my childhood and saying i've always wanted to sound 'valid', to be heard, so now i'm too defensive in my opinions and dont' give others a chance.

but, no excuses. i'm going to try to zip it up from now on.