whizz bang it came in a hurry and left in a huff and i'm left with remnants too dazed and blur to concretise a sweet packaged story. i'm talking about christmas. happy carols in church and happy present-opening at home with the regular dosage of nonsensical cheer and love-tinged laughter; we stuffed the refrigerator with chocs and candies. ee jie got me a pair of binoculars for watching theatre stage-gazing. pleasantries. it's a tropical one this year, i think that's why it felt so whambamhereandgoodbye. last year snowy canada tricked me into feeling christmassy whole december long. chistmas is always significant, and it should be. today pastor watson was spot on. take off, put on and forgive. begin the year without fear, pin all on the cross missy. christmas is nostalgic too cos that was when i tricked the trumpeter to my home for a party some years back. i'm a little scheming in such areas. but my intuitive vibes are to be trusted. i got me a sweet trumpeter for christmas and he's mine all mine.

yesterday the loh family had a little bbq fun at ee jie's new place with the nice pool, nice for lazy laps, not for long laps though. it's a first, christmas bbq i just realise. we should do a first something every year.

tea with brenda the day before at delifrance after frantic shopping. i shall end this year end with days of peace and quiet and a resuming of running and swimming and drinking plenty of water; too much festive gluttony has resulted in bleh feelings in the mouth and body so thus i need refreshment. this year has been one of new sounds aplenty which is very good for the heart and soul. i've managed to make swimming a non-intimiditating and regular sport; second sis and me will continue with kickboxing classes. had one great semester, one lousy semester, which i will not allow to bury me deep but i will be determined to do what i have to, be focused and simplify. selfishness begone. henceforth, much love, much maturity.