it's funny how things always appear so wonderfully laid out for me in my life. i did the subjects i liked, got to the jc i wanted to, and now i get a wonderfully PERFECT internship although i won't be here for the full term. i'm a being who needs to be inspired. i need to know passionate people and i need to read write and see things that seep into my blood and become part of me, so i can live.

i've been listening to the gilmore girls soundtrack the whole day in a cold office with a hot cup of tea, very cosy. it just makes you dream real. it's that squeezy heartburn-cos-the-world-is-wonderful-and-there-is-so-much-beauty kind of feeling that pinches you long. MY is going seattle and san fran on his own for hols. i'm so excited for him though it would be heaven if i could go with him too. I NEED MONEY! a godmother who dotes on me and who owns an apartment in seattle and another one in london and who sends me off on a fully paid trip every year! some day this may come true. it's nice to hope. or at least i hope i earn enough in the future to be my own fairy godmother.